Sorry I haven't updated an awful lot recently. I've been snowed under and wandering away from spending time with God. I was reading the bible but not really READING it, you know? And it was because of this niggling feeling that an aspect of my life was not within the will of God. Not a certainty, but a niggle. I didn't want to pray and spend time with God because I knew I would have to do something about it, and the truth is, when it comes to that I always fail, because I've tried to do this thing before, and I can't do it. I have the will to do it, because I believe it is God's will, but no the way. I quickly opened my bible and just thought I'd pray before I started, and then He must've had me face to face, because I just broke down and lay it all at his feet. Stupid thing is HE is the only one who can do this, I can't do it in my strength, and I've finally admitted it and given it to him. He spoke kind and soothing words, words that were not angry or judging because of my behaviour, but words of encouragement. "His yolk is easy, his burden is light". I wish I'd realised this before and just come to him with all my feelings and emotions and failure. He will work it out, in his perfect time. He is actually happy with me. In fact he rejoices in me, because he sees not the crumpled failure that I see but he sees the KINGDOM ME, that which is seen through the veil of Jesus. He sees me as I should be. Praise God!!! He also said that no matter how hard we try to mess things up, he will ALWAYS ALWAYS bring good out of it. I am so glad of that. It just leaves me speechless.
In answer I cry out to him in the words of the Psalmist David:
The LORD lives! Blessed be my rock!
May the God of my salvation be exalted!
He is the God who pays back those who harm me;
he subdues the nations under me
and rescues me from my enemies...
For this, O LORD, I will praise you among the nations;
I will sing joyfully to your name!
I was around like, 7 when I first asked God into my heart. I was fine for a while, although I didn't really understand the Idea of being a Christian. Later in life I started hanging out with the wrong people and I was going down hill fast. I wasn't into drugs or anything, but I wasn't acting like a Christian. I slowly started getting better about things around 10th grade, and in 11th grade I decided that I wanted to live for God and start acting like I should. At the end of or the summer after 11th grade I felt like God really wanted me to start a small Bible study. I got super excited about doing it, I called friends and asked if they wanted to do it and they said sure, so we started meeting on Tuesdays. The first meeting was pretty bad because we didn't have any books or study guides, so we went to go get some. Things got better, and that leads me to now.
I'm over half way through my senior year in high school and it scares me.lol. I'm pretty sure what I want to do with myself. But not completely. I want to be a mechanic, and that's what I'm probably going to college for(Mechanic Technology with and associate degree in Industrial Technology), then I wanted to do something in the line of religion, but I wasn't sure what. I'm a volunteer firefighter and I really would love to be a full time Firefighter. What ever I do I would love to spread the word of God.
I'm definitely not where I would like to religiously be, but I don't' think as a Christian you should ever be content with where you are, you can always grow. But if I was asked "Do you think you are trying hard enough to become a better Christian?" My answer would be no, and that bothers me. I think that If I could find some way to remind myself that Jesus loves me, and that God loves me I could do better, but I haven't found out how to do that yet. I wear a W.W.J.D. bracelet all the time, and that worked for a while, but now I'm just used to wearing it, so I still wear it, but last night I wrote sinner on my wrists to remind myself that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, and I need to sin less.
I also find myself struggling with things that shouldn't matter to me, like a Girlfriend, I don't have one and that used to tear me up, and like my Blazer....It's my baby, I don't think anything is wrong with that, but I'm wanting to get new mud tires on it and I find myself obsessing over it more than God. I definitely have things I need to work on, and I hope I have the will power to straighten them out.
Thank you for reading my story! =D
My name is Meghan and I am 18 years old and a freshman at Penn State University. I just became a Christian 3 monthes ago and am never turning back! I am part of Campus Crusade for Christ on Campus and it has been a great place for fellowship and digging into the Word. Hope to meet you all and have some interesting discussions!
Today I read the story of Abraham and Isaac. It touches me and speaks to me of what true devotion and true obedience is. I have things I love very dearly, people I love very dearly. I am loathed to let go of them. I need prayer in this area. I know I should store up treasures in heaven, but I also know that the things I have are gifts from God, and I try to share them and use them for his Glory. But there is another thing which I love above most things, and it is a person. We were very very close and actually went out for a time. I finished with him because I knew God was telling me this man was not the one. He is not the one God has planned for me. This has repercussions. One, I need to be patient and wait on God, keep asking, for he will give, that's a certainty. The other repercussion is much more painful though. Am I to abandon my friend completely and pretend I never knew him? If this is a test from God to see how much I love him, I have already failed Him, as I did not, like Abraham, simply sacrifice my friend up to him. I know God is working on me. I know my life is a process. I know that he may have severed links between us in the spiritual realm but he is still to do it in the earthly realm. I know that I feel uneasy that I am still communicating with this man, even though I know he has come closer to God through me. I think I want someone to say to me "you don't have to stop being his friend". I don't think that is the issue really, but the feelings I have for him and he has for me are. The love is of course tinged with lust. If that lust could be taken away it would no longer be sinful. I ask that you would pray for me. Any advice would also be welcome. I really need Christian support in this matter.
These words encourage me at this time...
"The Lord is a shelter for the oppressed,
a refuge in times of trouble.
Those who know your name trust in you,
for you, O Lord, have never abandoned anyone who searches for you."
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Take care, God bless. xxx
Just a quick Bible update today. And a praise.
God has been teaching me patience. It's a good lesson to learn. Not just the patience that eagerly expects what's next but the patience that lives for and sucks every last bit of juice out of the present. Does that make sense? It's so easy to eagerly await the next thing that God has for us, without truly making the most of what he has for us NOW. I was inspired by Noah's story. They were in that boat for over a year before the waters subsided. They were human. They were surrounded by all kinds of smelly animals, in a very very enclosed space. They must have grumbled. They must have wondered - Do we get to see dry land yet? When will we be free? I would have gone stir crazy if that had been me. Absolutely potty. But what did they do? They praised God. They built an altar to him and offered sacrifice to Him. Now the cynical me says, yes, that's because they were so glad to finally get out of there!! But I think there's more to it. God rescued them from destruction! He saved their lives! The lesson it teaches is loud and clear. There is nothing wrong with looking forward to the future with eager expectation, but REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS for he is ALWAYS good. No matter what the situation, whether it be in the belly of a whale or the claustrophobic ark, remember, God saved you. If there's nothing else apparant to be grateful for, there's always something. GOD LOVES US, so much that he sent his son. It's worth getting excited over!! So if you can relate to feeling like you are not moving on, waiting on God to release you, I urge you to thank him, and pray for him to show you how to suck every drop of goodness and opportunity out of every moment. Who knows, he may surprise you.
My praise is that I went back to school today. I was aprehensive as I've had a tough first term and I wasn't looking forward to going back. I felt trapped, in the drudgery of paperwork and red tape. I said a simple prayer this morning. "LORD, help me find the spark again, the spark that called me to teach in the beginning, show me clearly why I am there." I had a lovely day. The spark was there, in all the eager little faces of those children. Those children of God. Sure they can be brats sometimes, but let's not forget that the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these!!
"If I fought wild beasts in Ephesus for merely human reasons, what have I gained? If the dead are not raised Let us eat and drink for tomorrow we die. Do not be mislead: BAD COMPANY CORRUPTS GOOD CHARACTER. COME BACK TO YOUR SENSES AS YOU OUGHT, AND STOP SINNING....."